(Never) Let me go

- I don't think we're gonna see each other again.
- What are you saying, babe? What's wrong?

I was crying. I was holding him and crying. I didn't want it to go away. I had been away from that warmth for so long that it was the only thing I'd been longing for. The way someone looked at me as if my story really cared. The way he smiled at me as if we were closer than friends. The way he cried to me and showed he had opened himself and that made me think he felt comfortable with me, that I was needed in his heart as much as he was in mine.

- If you are not going to say you want to be with me, or that we are together, I can't be next to you. You know what I offer. Massages, talks, experiences maybe trips. I'll do anything I can to make you happy, I will watch romantic movies, I will learn your deepest likes and I will surprise you with them, I will pretend to forget something important only to make something better just so you'll have another day to think as unforgetable. I will be romantic, dramatic, rude, sarcastic. We will get to each other's nerves, we will have days that we won't be able to remember sadness at all. I offer a relationship, commitment, romance, companionship... all of those we've tried and failed. All of them that drove us through a journey to here. I have seen a lot of relationships that went bad. And people used to live in the same neighbourhood! So whatever difficulty it is that we might face will be ours, and ours to face. I wanna have fun next to you. I want something to remember as something good. For both of us. From you, I could have less from that, but I would never be satisfied. So, if you do not want all of this I just said with me, I have to be away from you for a while. 

- Don't you think that's too much?

- I'm not saying we're there. I'm saying I'm willing to be commited to you to build that. Because it all involves commitment from the first day. And we have to be happy about it all. When we are in love and not afraid of it, we act like this. We go at our own pace, doing things we believe will make us happy, we will share that. I don't want either of us to start without excitment. We have to feel like we're going to have fun together, that we are not strangers. Commitment is about having a bond of companionship, and that's not complicated, but it takes a lot of our heart.

- So, you want me to be your boyfriend?

- I want you to be with me. Cheesy, right?

- It's cheesy, but very truthful. I don't think there'd be another person that could make me believe what you just said. You must really mean it.

- I don't think I would say it if I didn't.