What I want from us

Dear Adam,

I don’t want us to be together. 

I remember the lovers from the past and how we ended up drifting apart. How ended up forgetting who we were for each other during the wonderful days. I remember how we treated each other as strangers, the unnecessary fights, the insults that were never said. Have you ever been through the situation of thinking horrible things about the person you supposedly loved the most? Have you ever caught yourself complaining about things in that person that initially didn’t bother you at all?

I don’t want us to be together if I am to see us falling apart. I’ve fell before and I want to believe I’ve learned how to get closer, walk the walk to seeing things through together. Relying more on the relationship I’m building instead of getting drowned into the dramas and believe things will come to an end.

I don’t want us to be together if you are thinking about being another one. I do believe in marriage, I do believe in building a family for myself and that is who I am. It is what I’m trying to do.

I don’t want us to be together if it means changing each other. We might change along the way, but our individual lives are our lives. We’ve got our own friends, family, tastes, hobbies and they should exist even if we decide to stick together. No matter who we are together, we are always going to be something alone, and I want to be next to you, not all over you and your life.

I don’t want us to be together if I already start to see difficulties in our relationship. Obstacles are not difficulties and overcoming challenges is a part of the fun that our relationship should have. 

I don’t want us to be together if it means losing more than winning, I don’t want us to be together if we’ll be translated to “a relationship”.

I want us to be together to be Adam and Leo and always have you next to me in the future. Whatever that may bring.

Love from your gato,

Leo