Things that were easily found went missing after you. If you were to take so much, why did I give? What did I lose? Can I get it back? Could you do me this much?

Insisting

For now this will be the last of what you'll hear from me.
This is just because it seems I took you too seriously. There hasn't been one day since we met that I haven't thought of you. Did I tell you how crazy I think this is? Did I tell you how sometimes when I'm with other guys talking, smoking and even fucking I almost say your name? How I look at all kinds of stuff and I think "I'd love to show Adam this".
All of this I've been thinking is not healthy. Because whenever I think of someone to be with, there's no one I'd rather spend more time with than you and the inability to get interested in anyone else, well, I could just justify with being in love with you.
It's been 5 months and it seems that you don't want us to go far. And I don't want to be someone's brazilian lover, I wanna be someone's boyfriend, husband. And I think that saying "it's hard because you live there and I live here" is just bullshit.
Distance isn't hard, it's part of the fun - getting your love close to you. It's part of what a relationship and love is supposed to be.
I will never measure my efforts done for love but I need a man that is willing to give the same because we'll be in this shit together.
Don't misunderstand me, I will always, always be waiting for you to show by my doorsteps. But if you didn't come to stay, I can't afford the heartache.





Hey Adam,
I don't know how well aware you are of this, but my intentions with you are not fleeting. I hold you very very dear and it sounds crazy even to me, but there hasn't actually been one day that I didn't think of you.
You know what I do, I try to write beautiful things, I try to make the sweetest gestures I can but the truth is that I've been trying to see future for us, whatever it might be.
There are things I wanna do with my life and one of the biggest of them involve being in a relationship and you touched me in a way that I never thought anyone would and I fell in love with you - I guess you've got that figured out by now.
I don't think distance is hard - it might get challenging sometimes, but the whole point is to make it go away eventually.
Despite saying things that suggested you like me too, you never made your intentions clear and more and more it looks like you've been playing games with me.
I want to be crystal clear about it all: I want to get  you know you better and spend more time with you. I know distance makes it challenging but for me there won't be anything much more important than family, so I'd take the challenge gladly.
It's not about being anything right now, it's just about heading towards the same direction.
I wish you all the best and to your family as well - Jill is included here.
I'm gonna try to leave you alone by now, but never forget I'll always be waiting for you by my doorsteps.
Hope you had a great nye.