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Hi...

I wanted to send something without sounding like a total nutjob about what's going on, but I don't know if I'm going to be successful.
I tried for days to understand and tell myself you had your life, that my life wasn't that busy and I shouldn't expect you to be head over heels for me. That was cool, I could actually convince myself it was ok for you to be distant specially because this week you have your brother around and all.
But it seems that now I cannot feel anything but misled and disrespected by you.
If I were to be honest, right now it is just as if since we have already met, and fucked, it is no longer  exciting to nurture our friendship or whatever it is that we thought we had.
To be treated like that, honestly, was never a problem to me, specially because I've done it to others.
But to have the days like we did, conversations we had and then acting the way you are is just cruel and unhuman.
You see, there are no hurtful feelings in my words, just the simple fact that if you have any kind of respect for me, the least you could have done was not to mislead me into thinking you have any feelings for me at all.
Even if we were just friends, it is only decent to check up on each other, talk, share what's been going on and help whenever is it that we can. You just disappeared.
Apparently, sending you the book was too much - and I get it that it might look like I'm acting as a teenager and I don't see what I'm doing. I did feel a bit immature about somethings I said and did but I'm not an immature person.

My impression is that you aren't feeling anything at all by reading this. It is as if I never existed. If it is so, please just let me know so I'll stop making a fool of myself and I'll stop trying for someone that doesn't even care.

No friend abandons the other... if you think you don't want to keep up the way we acted on that weekend and just want to be friend, it's ok, but you should have the balls for saying so. If you took it as adventure and it's done, you should have balls to admit it to me - I mean, if it were me and I didn't feel anything or just felt it was done, I would just delete you from my friend's list and it would be done - but yet, there's been nothing from you.

I have the guts to say that I meant each and every word I told you and I do have feelings for you and even though they might seem the way a teen would behave, I am a man that knows the way he is and what he wants for himself. I wanted to have something with you, try it out, see what would come out of it.

But now, I just feel disrespected and foolished by someone that said would never ever want to hurt me. You treat me like a stranger, you take me for granted and I can't take it from someone I honestly thought was a good person - I still think you are, but not for me. You look like the best friend a lot of people would like to have, and well, I've seen you as a great guy, but yet again, not for me.

I'm sorry if this is too much of "brokehearted teenage boy", but I just want to move on if there's nothing here. Sorry to bother you again, have a nice weekend.