First letter to God

Dear God,

Once again I find myself in challenging times. Money is short and might be gone soon. Add to that the debts and bills – it seems I’ve gone too far this time.

Loneliness is cruel and there’s not much more to that. It makes me lose my breath and get desperate.

And then there’s Adam who is the person I’ve always dreamed to be with. I know I’ve felt “this time it’s right” before, but you do know I wouldn’t take these risks again if I thought it wasn’t true.

Rather than that, I should acknowledge everything is perfect. Great success in studies, I found a job without even looking for it, I met great people and I was able to pay last month’s rent and metro pass. Hopefully I’ll have all I need to eat this month. Also I’ve started to learn how to manage my finances and expenses.

I thank you for it all: the good and the bad, because both of them have been great sources of knowledge and learning.

As for the future, I pray for discipline, patience, work and love.

Discipline so I stick to my routine and keep on having success in managing money, patience on the bad days, work so I can get back on my feet and well, love. As for love, I couldn’t thank you enough for putting Adam into my life. The only thing I ask is for him to stay. Please don’t take him away… don’t tell me there’s something to be learned from him being away from me, because he is the one.

Help me feeling the way I do in hopeful days, when I feel I’m fine and everything is going to be great no matter what.

I love you, feel you, thank you and give you my heart for you to fill my soul and involve my mind in your wisdom.

Forever yours,
Leo